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It feels, I think,
like how it must be
to be in an abusive relationship.
You hide the evidence from your loved ones.
'Just a scratch.'
'I walked into a door.'
'I caught my finger in a hinge.'
You feel ashamed. You feel weak.
'Why do I keep putting myself through this?'
But sometimes, oh, sometimes,
it can be wonderful.
And you forget then, how bad you'll feel afterwards
When you see the marks.
'I'll never do it again.'
'Don't you feel better now?'
'I can make you feel good.'
And however hard you try,
However much you tell yourself that
you'll never take them - it - back.
You know that you will.
Because you believe what it says about you.
'You'll never make it on your own.'
Literature
Self Harm
A cross upon my wrist,
Blood that makes me sane,
Release a heavy burden,
Of never ending pain.
A mark for my regret,
A cut across my arm,
Trying to find my comfort,
My comfort is self harm.
Literature
Self Harm
I scratch,
White marks appear.
As they turn red,
Out pours all my anger.
I smash,
My head against walls.
Pain soars through my body,
Releasing all my mental pain.
I burn,
Red marks on my skin.
They bring freedom,
Setting me free from the fires of hell.
Hurting no one but myself.
Finding mental freedom from physical pain.
Red, white, purple, blue.
Anger, rejection, upset, pain.
People say it's wrong,
They look down their noses.
Only making things worse,
Friends leave, strangers frown.
So,
I can't cope with my mental pain,
But i've never inflicted pain on YOU.
Literature
Self Abuse
Right now,
I wish I could hate you.
Right now,
all I want is to tell you
how angry I am at you.
Right now,
I could tear my heart out,
just so It wouldn't feel
the anguish that you cause it.
But, all it does is love
you.
Burn out the part of my brain
that allows for emotional stimulation.
But all it does,
is think of what's best for you.
Do what you want,
I don't care.
But have enough compassion
to not throw it in my face.
Why did you pick me?
Why did you go there?
Why did you; do you,
use me the way you have?
Why out of everyone else,
would you choose to hurt me?
Bait me, just to keep me where
you think you
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My thoughts on self-harm. The idea's been floating about in my head for a few days now, and I'm still not sure if I got it down quite right.
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Very well written. I like it a lot.